Moving

Well, it's official...we're moving. Picked up the keys yesterday.

It has been a long couple of years and in the last several months we realized this was inevitable. Actually, I think my husband accepted that fact long before I did. I was in denial. I was operating under very wishful thinking. I've had many moments of anxiety and sadness over losing this house. My mind would go crazy thinking of all the memories we have here; all the "firsts" that occurred here. My heart would ache thinking about someone else living in our house...actually I was really bitter when I thought about that.

I tried to whip my attitude into shape by reminding myself this was merely four walls -by putting things into perspective as I thought about my friends in Haiti who were homeless or living in tents...still. It didn't work.

"I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:11-13

I would think of these verses in Philippians about being content and know that I should be focused more on that type of thinking, but it was hard! I wish I could say that my attitude was positive and I was confident in the Lord to give me the strength to get through, but that wasn't exactly how I was feeling through all of this. Of course I knew deep down the Lord would bring us through...this too shall pass, right? But it wasn't easy bringing my thoughts and feelings into alignment with those verses.

Somewhere along the way God helped me work through all of those negative thoughts and feelings. Just in the last few months really. I prayed a lot for my heart and attitude to change (and I know I had others praying for me too). I realized that I was giving too much thought and attention to the problem when really I should have been focusing on the Lord all along.

"Therefore...fix your thoughts on Jesus..." Hebrews 3:1

So now here I am with keys to another house and feeling at peace.

"For He Himself is our peace..." Ephesians 2:14

We are able to move slowly, which makes it not as overwhelming. Emmie is begging to set up her bed at the new house because she is so excited to live there! The Lord provided us with the perfect house for our family, with benefits that even here we did not have. I have been praying for whoever is going to live in this house next because otherwise I get sad thinking about it all.

Now I'm trying to maintain a joyful attitude.

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, when you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance." James 1:2-3

I know He is able and I know He does provide...so why am I always so amazed when He comes through and comes through perfectly and right on time???